Nothing is going on and nothing is happening. Gah.
Someone commented yesterday that it was quiet on our homefront and honestly, it's just because I have nothing to say. Nothing is happening and it's frustrating. This baby seems to be pretty comfy inside of me and shows absoluetly no signs of coming out. It's hard because I obviously have been counting down for months and even though my due date is still 10 days away, part of me is desperately hoping the baby would say hello earlier. Couple in my regulars at work going 'It's still in there?" and my coworkers repeatedly saying "No baby yet?" and it feels like I'm doing something wrong because the baby isn't here yet. I can't even imagine how terrible it will feel if the baby goes past his/her due date...
I think if I have a baby again I'm not going to tell people when it's due... like say it's 3 weeks later than it really is, haha. I know I should just be thankful that people care about me and the baby and can't wait to meet him/her but I can't help but feel like people are disappointed in me because I haven't had him/her yet. I know the feeling will pass and it's just horomonal but it's still hard to see other babies and think "Why isn't mine here yet?"
I fiddle around on Thebump.com, looking at boards and looking at different things. I like reading some of the message boards because it makes me laugh. Like some women complain about how they are so uncomfortable working thier 35 hour a week schedule... at a desk job... at 33 weeks pregnant and it makes me smile to know that I can still do so much. Other women share horror stories about their hemmeroids and swelling and how terrible their significant other is being and it reminds me to be thankful for how smooth this has gone for me. As much as I complain about having to wait for the baby, I am lucky enough to have had a pregnancy that waiting is my biggest fear. Wanna hear something pathetic? I was actually jealous last night of someone's post that they had seen thier mucus plug come out. Gross, I know, but hey, she knows her labor is starting and I'm still sitting here hoping ANYTHING will happen that will make it feel like the baby will be here shortly, rather than in a few months. I'll get a few random cramps and pulls but nothing feels "hurt" enough to be a contraction. There's no discharge, no swelling, no sign that it's progressing. Boo. I have one new pain and it's so dumb, The inside of my thighs feel like I have been biking the Tour de France. SO SORE! Yesterday was bad but I got a really great massage this morning and I feel a lot better so I guess it's back to just feeling huge while I wait for labor to start.
I'm seriously ready at any point. I dont even care if my water breaks while I'm at work. I just want something... anything... to show that I'm getting closer and that baby wants to meet me as badly as I want to meet him or her.